Living in the Present or Contemplating the Future?

My life at the moment revolves around exams, school and preparing for university...

The past few weeks I've realised that i have been dropping in the topics related with Uni into everyday conversation. Like the fact I cannot wait to decorate my room there, like the fact it will be weird going out with new people and not any of my school friends, like the fact that I will be somewhere completely different. I will leave school in 5 months time. That in itself is very freaky, school is something that is always a constant in everyone's children years. We attend it since we were so young that you cannot remember anything different in your life. I like routine, and I like the fact that I have a specific routine very week that I rarely shy away from. My friends at school know me as being the organised one who likes to plan ahead and know what we are doing. Uni won't be like that, Uni will be full of spontaneous conversations, a bunch of new people and a lot of 'going with the flow,' it will be fun and exciting and full of new things however the prospect of leaving this small village, my school and my dance school; all things which I've known forever, is very daunting. But it's very exciting at the same time. It is bittersweet. 

In a way when I write this I realise that I need to focus on the present and put the future in the back of my mind. I need to enjoy this last five months of school (not matter how much stress they bring!) as, they are my last! I should just embrace the whole school atmosphere, embrace the vast array of people in my year, and embrace the opportunities I have to learn and grow at school. Right now I need to be doing my photography work but I had a sudden spurt of inspiration to write this post - I may or may not have just finished Girl Online by Zoella/ Siobhan Curham (awkward...) and been inspired by the blog and general fuzziness that the end brings!

Just to say, I think for the next few months I may have to turn this blog into a 'once a week' type thing, which does irritate me a bit but school comes first etc etc, I also am going to leave you with my favourite quotes/photo's I find from the week or in general life...

Now Reading // Girl Online - It was such a cute cheesy fun read!

Now Watching // Pretty Little Liars again!

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Instagram Lately #4

The first half of this week seemed so chill, school was only just beginning again so we didn't have much work so it was spent catching up with friends and trying to get to grips with the early morning starts! However when the second half of the week started, work very quickly crept up to me. I realised on Thursday that half of my Photography A Level and my English fiction coursework deadlines were both in exactly two weeks, and that scared me. So I spent most time locking myself in the photography room or in the 'quiet room' at school. I think my friends were surprised at how much I was working! The motivation to do well in my Alevels suddenly hit me on Wednesday afternoon and I just realised how much effort I need to put into them to get the good grade that I do really want!

So I thought I'd catch up with you with an 'Instagram lately' that spans through November to now. I haven't done one of these in a while and it's quite nice looking back at my life in pictures the last few months. I'm off to an 18th party this evening which I'm pretty darn excited for!

Now Reading // Atonement by Ian Mcewan - I've only just started this but at the moment I'm fascinated with Briony's passion for writing!

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18 Candles

Dress - American Eagle. Shoes - New Look. 

Yesterday was perfect. I'm going to continue replaying every little detail of the day in my head forever. I spent my 18th birthday with everyone in the world that I love. My family, my family friends I've known since I was little, my friends from dancing, my friends from school and everyone in between. I felt so loved it was amazing and seeing everyone there together, I could not stop smiling! 

Whilst searching for a New Years Eve outfit in late December I came across this dress in American Eagle and instantly knew it was perfect for my birthday. The swing style, the stripes and the price felt like it was made for me. I was already picturing my make-up - gold eyes, winged eyeliner and red lips! I'm sure this dress will be worn many many times.Anyway, even though I'm now officially an adult, that doesn't stop school from happening so as I type this in my Monday morning free, I hope you all have a fab week! I'm sure I will as I continue replaying yesterday over and over again. 

Now Playing // 18 Candles by Nina Nesbitt seemed fitting!

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Shadow

Jeans and Top (Only collar shown)- Topshop. Jumper - Aeropostale. Shoes - New Look. Bag - H&M

This outfit is typically all my christmas presents put together! My Jeans, jumper and bag were all given to me for Christmas and fit together to make the perfect relaxed outfit. My parents got me this grey knitted crop jumper from Aeropostale when they were in Florida a couple of weeks before christmas (jealous doesn't even begin to cover it) and it fits perfectly, it is so soft and the arms are really long that it is just very snug! Then these jeans are the classic high waisted joni jeans from Topshop that I cannot seem to get enough of! I haven't had a pair of normal blue jeans in quite a few years so it's a bit of a change but I feel like the rips bring it back to my style! This bag is perfection from H&M, I always see people with larger solid handbags and have fancied one for a while so when I opened this up from Madeleine and Matthew I was delighted!

This week has been a bit mismatched with exams at schools, a uni visit and a lot of photography work to do but I'm starting off the weekend early by being tucked up in bed on a Friday afternoon watching Pretty Little Liars,writing an article for my school magazine,  and drinking coffee - pure bliss!

Now Listening too // Tom Odell - I can never get bored of his songs! And One Directions album 'Four' I probably should be embarrassed but, I have no shame!

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Unforgettable Nights, Feeling Infinite and Creating Worlds...

 So, I come to you with a Sunday night ramble inspired by pictures. I know my last post was a rather writing -heavy post but I've just feel like I've got a fair amount to say at the moment and this post was just screaming to be written all day whilst I was revising for my mocks this up-coming week! So, here it is, my thoughts spread out in the open for you all to read.

I've been writing a fair amount the past week (in my new beautiful journal I got for Christmas) but not the normal journal writing I do regularly, but creative writing. I've been creating characters inspired by film characters, making scenes, producing dialogue between characters, just creating a story. I've got so lost in my own little world, I've loved it. I quite often murmur about how I like creative writing but I only ever really have done it when I need to for school but it was such a liberating feeling doing it because I wanted to, it's something I really want to keep up this year!

 I turn 18 a week today, and that is incredibly freaky but super exciting. 18. I'll be an adult! I'll be able to vote, I'll be able to buy alcohol. It's odd, what an age means. I'm sure the next day I won't feel any different but 18 seems like a monumental age that you've always dreamed of being. I won't longer be a 'child' anymore! I know I'm growing up and the future is coming at speed but it still doesn't feel that real yet, but I have a feeling it will start soon enough!

Last Sunday night my mum, my sister and I were driving back from London, I can't even remember what we were singing too but we were singing at the top of our lungs. The lights were passing by as we drove with speed down the motorway and I just snapped this picture. I think I have a thing at the moment for imperfections in pictures. I like how this isn't crisp or perfect, the lighting is amazing and the colours are off, but it captures what I was feeling at that moment - infinite. (Perks of being a Wallflower reference right there)

This is another picture that I like because of its imperfections. If you follow me on instagram you will see that whenever I go out with friends to a party or something, I always post similar photo's of us posing and looking relatively nice (or so we think!) but Olivia took this just after Bryony and I had finished posing; I think the blurriness and the smiles we seem to have capture the essence of the night and it's one of my favourites of that night. It was  on New Years Eve and was our friends Ella and Olivia birthday party, it was such a great night. It's one I'll remember because of dancing until everyone went home and the last song of the night came on, Superbass, and my small group of friends sung and danced our hearts out, it was perfect - a perfect way to start the year.

I've got some exams at school this week, a uni to visit and a mountain of photography work to do but am as motivated as ever to keep this blog up. Let me know if you like this kind of post, because it's definitely one of my favourites to produce!

Now Watching // Pretty Little Liars - Season 1 - 5 is on Netflix and I'm going to attempt to watch them all and finally catch up, so I won't have to read synopsis on each episode to join in my friend s conversations!

Now Reading // We Are All Completely Besides Ourselves - Karen Joy Fowler - This book has taken a while for me to get into it but I think it's captivated me now! 

P.S I updated my good reads page yesterday, so make sure you check it out. 

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