So, I haven’t written in a while, and partly that’s been because my life has been so hectic and partly its because I have lost motivation/ confidence in this blog.
My life the past month or so has been extremely busy and you
will have seen on my instagram. I’ve been finishing off exams (thank god their
over – now for the long wait until August 13th), went on a girls
holiday to Ayia Napa, had a lot of ‘end of school’ celebrations like Vale and
Final Fling (Prom and a speech day/graduation type thing) then have been
preparing for my dance show which happened this past weekend. I’ve been wanting
to live life in the present and not worry about my blog, which is weird, I
shouldn’t worry about my blog, I should be excited to write about it. But, I
couldn’t really put it into words all the different emotions I felt about
leaving school and dancing and in a way didn’t (and still don’t) want to come
to terms with it. I am excited to go to Uni, but I am also terrified for
everything to change.
For some reason in my head I created a mental block against my blog. I
would sit down to write a post and think ‘Why are you doing this?’ ‘There are so
many other people who write better than you’ and ‘Your blog design looks like a
child has done it.’ Therefore I just closed the window and opened Netflix to
distract myself. Even with the encouragement with my friend Luke to collaborate
to create a better youtube channel, I lacked motivation, and I still do.
But, my blog is my baby. I’ve nearly been running one for 4
years and I can’t give up now. It’s an odd period in my life, everything is
ending but I know new beginnings are around the corner, and I want to document that
and be able to look back at exactly what was going on in my life and treasure
the inbetween moments. So, I’m back, StyleStorey is back to normal (fingers
crossed) and I’m seriously considering a blog redesign or even a move to
wordpress, but we shall see. To symbolise the ending of multiple things to the
beginning of new things these two photos are a sunset and a sunrise in Ayia
Napa.
If any of you are still around, thank you for reading this
and thank you sticking by me through a very bland blog break!
The beauty of blogging is that it's your own personal space and you can write about whatever you want... or not right at all if you don't feel like it - the only one making the rules is you! That's how I feel about it anyway :)
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